40 days feels like 100

My Husband, Their Daddy, Our Hero


Well.. it's day 40... feels like 100. I wish it were one hundred because then it would be closer to r and r.. and closer to my amazing husband HOME!
Raegynn constantly says, "mommee where my daddy" I reply with "he's at work remember?"
she says.. "oh. can he come home now? I miss him too much"
heartbreaking.

I'm looking forward to going to WV. It's getting closer and closer. I cannot wait to see my momma, my brother, and the rest of the family. I think it will help with passing the time by.
I also cannot wait to see Crystal!!! oh the midnight trips to wal mart! GLORIOUS! It's funny, whenever we go.. we ALWAYS run into someone we know. Crazy.

I miss Dustin so much. I'm so afraid to let myself express exactly how I feel, even to myself.. because I'm afraid it will REALLY hit me... and I won't be able to get out of the funk. He's so amazing. Our love has grown so much. It is so unreal to me. When I dreamed, I never dreamed I would love someone THIS much. would miss someone THIS much.
We've been through a lot.. to say the least... and we keep making it.. we always do.
With God on our side, I know we will continue to make it.


With this deployment we're trying to stay busy. Trying to keep our minds off of the negative and focused on the positive. That is all we can do.

I can remember so vividly when we first started talking and he sent me text messages of lyrics. I remember when he first told me he loved me. I remember exactly what he was wearing the day I met him. My memory may be fading in other areas.. (lol) but those are some things I will NEVER forget.

It's funny how the first time I talked to him.. I knew. I knew it was different. I knew he was the ONE! I'm so very blessed to have him as my husband. He's made me a better person, and makes me want to be an even better person.

I'm so incredibly proud of you, Dustin. Thank you for the life you provide for us, the love you give us and for everything in between. We cannot wait until you are home with us where you belong. Keep your faith in the Lord alive in your heart. Know that we may be separated by miles right now, but never separated in our hearts. There isn't a moment that goes by that you aren't on our mind or in our prayers. It gives me strength too, that at night when I look at the moon.. it's the same thing you are looking at when you get up in the morning. Every night when I'm out there.. looking up.. praying, and thinking of you.. I get butterflies.. then a calmness. I know that it's you.

I love you.
Missing you more and more every day.
your wife.

Faith. Family. Love.

Rainy Day

Oh Rainy Day..

I've been able to talk to Dustin regularly which has been extremely nice.. He's doing well with his living conditions.. and I'm so happy he's positive. He's busy and making time to call home. What an amazing guy I have.

Today.. my cousin got married....... I'm sad.. that I couldn't be there... I've seen mobile pictures thus far.. cannot wait to see actual pictures! She looks stunning. Shes like one of my own.. I know as long as they keep God first... they will be just fine. Although, when I get to WV I will surely have a talk with her hubby.. you know the normal threatening things that any good family member would say.. haha jk!
(( or am i?!))

I purchased a hand held Shark cleaner... oh I have been having fun... I don't think my bathroom has ever been more clean! GLORIOUS!
my next purchase will be the steam mop.

Tyler had his tonsils removed on Tuesday.. It has been a painful ride for him.. poor guy. I hate seeing my kids in pain.. knowing there is NOTHING I can do about it.
The doc that did the surgery was EXTREMELY nice. He is a Christian so that put me at complete ease. Tyler has been living on pudding, slushies, and milk shakes. last night he was able to get some cold pasta down. I'm so proud of him.

I've realized that Raegynn has been asking me a lot here recently.. "mommee you happy?" I guess I need to get more smiley... for their sake.. I guess this deployment seems to be harder on all of us..
She did get to talk to him today.. she was grinning from ear to ear!

Well,,, I'm off to clean more.. I have a ton more to say.. but I'm saving it ..
Happy Saturday all.

Insert "smart" title here....

so.. This blog has been set up for a while.. and I haven't put anything on here yet... mainly cuz I really don't know exactly WHAT to put..
I have so much going on right now.. its CRAZY.. With Dustin deployed.. Jadyn has fractured her foot.. Tyler is having his tonsils removed in the morning.. and I'm falling apart.. i mean literally.. I need to go to the doctor.. but moms aren't supposed to get sick.. or need a doctor.. and it always happens when the kids are ill, or needing assistance.. and/or Dustin isn't home.

Is it next year yet?! .. I know I can handle this.. I know I'm fully capable of it.. and with the good Lord on my side I WILL get through it all.. I know I'm strong enough with Him. Sometimes I just get really frustrated..... but that's allowed... right?

I told my mom today.. that if she didn't come help me I wasn't going to go home through the summer. I know she would be here in a heartbeat if she could... Not to mention I really didn't mean it. It was just one of those weak moments.. (that i infrequently have.. hahahaha) Just talking to her helps..

I'm so thankful Georgia is here to help me through... Lord knows I'd be lost without her.. Bless her heart, she is getting up at o'dark thirty (as dustin calls it) to come over here and be with the kids so I can take Tyler in the morning. I hate putting the responsibility of our kids on someone else.. but some how she makes me understand.. that it's ok. I owe her BIG time.

My BFFFFFF (I'd put more f's but i don't want ya to think I'm too crazy.. :/ ) is getting ready for another deployment... I so wish I could be there with her.. and help her... and just be there to make her randomly laugh.. from barking.. or someones butt hanging out.. ( no, not mine haha) or just to cry with her. Dear Army, Can I have my friend back please... sooner than later? KTHANKS! :)

So, I have tons to do tonight.. so I really need to get a move on.. so I can get to bed at a reasonable hour.. and get enough sleep for Tyler's surgery tomorrow.. and pray that I wake up with my alarm..

I think I'm going to like this here blogging thing (yes I meant to say it that way) cuz I'll be able to look back and keep memories.. AND! it'll help pass the time.

Talk soon.